1328：Breaking away from Attachment and Transcending Suffering

Prostrations to His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, His Holiness the Drikung Kyabgon Chetsang, Dharma Protector Achi, the Lineage gurus, and the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas. Greetings, fellow believers and Dharma brothers. I am Bai Shu Yue from Group Six, and my Dharma name is Hui Yian Drolma. I am grateful to Rinpoche for bestowing me the opportunity to hereby praise the guru’s merits and repent the evil karma I have committed from accumulated past lifetimes.

Through the introduction of Dharma brother Jin from Group Four who has passed away, I attended the Great Indiscriminate Amitabha Puja for Transferring Consciousness presided over by His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche in 2005. Until 2011, Dharma brother Lin from Group Four encouraged me to seek an audience with Rinpoche and enter the Buddhist Center to learn Buddha Dharma.

At the Refuge Puja on 8 April 2012, a volunteer Dharma brother informed me that because I had previously been late, everything I had implored from Rinpoche had been revoked. Therefore, I could not go up to take refuge that day and would have to implore Rinpoche for taking refuge again. After I was late in February 2012, I was no longer allowed to attend the pujas. During those weeks until March 2012, I sat outside the red door; I could not see Rinpoche in person, nor could I make offerings. Only then did I feel in my heart how precious an opportunity it had been to be able to attend the pujas before.

In order to enable us to receive the precious Buddha Dharma, Rinpoche continuously grants disciples many virtuous activities, allowing us to accumulate good fortune, merits and resources so as to learn Buddha Dharma. Rinpoche once expounded: ‘The time left in this lifetime is used to practice and repay debts.’ I took refuge on 23 September, 2012. After taking refuge, I am grateful to the guru for blessing me to unceasingly eliminate my incorrect mindsets of learning Buddhism and transform my whole life. I will forever remember this incomparably precious blessing. The fate origin for my taking refuge, as well as Rinpoche’s compassionately (maitrī and karuṇā) transferring my father’s consciousness during the Chod puja, are detailed on the Traces of Liberating Beings, Article no. 969,‘Encountering a Meritorious Guru and Opening the Path for me to Learn the Right Dharma.’

On 20 March, 2017 at around 5 a.m., my father passed away. At that time, I was on my way to the Buddhist Center. After arriving at the Buddhist Center, I learned of this news. At that moment, I knew that only Rinpoche could help my father. After the evening prayer, I rushed to the hospital mortuary, seeing my father’s face withered and his mouth slightly open. I placed the nectar pill bestowed by Rinpoche into my father’s mouth, and whispered nearby his ear that I would implore His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for his help, and visualized Rinpoche blessing my father. After chanting Great Six-Syllable Mantra for eight hours, we again viewed my father’s apperance. His face had already become very different from before, his appearance became more beautiful and rounded, and his lips were tightly closed. Only by His Eminence Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s blessings, did all of these auspicious signs arise. 

I am grateful to Rinpoche for transferring the consciousnesses of my father and my ancestors across many generations. When I was young, there were often ceaseless quarrels in our family. It was only after I began attending the Great Indiscriminate Amitabha Puja for Transferring Consciousness presided over by Rinpoche in 2005, as well as the Chod puja and Sunday pujas, that the turmoil and conflicts in our family became calmer day by day. Rinpoche once expounded: ‘It is clearly stated in the Sutra of Bodhisattva Ksitigarbha’s Fundamental Vows, that the relatives of the deceased should engage in Buddhist activities broadly for helping the deceased, because if the deceased, during their lifetime, did not repent, observe precepts, cultivate the Ten Meritorious Acts, or develop compassion(maitrī and karuṇā) and learn compassion(maitrī and karuṇā), the deceased will have no fate to go to the virtuous realms!’ The relatives should continuously engage in Buddhist activities broadly throughout this lifetime. My parents and ancestors across generations received Rinpoche’s great compassionate (maitrī and karuṇā) assistance. A meritorious guru is difficult to encounter, it is an instant fate within countless ages. Now that I have encountered the guru, I even should redouble my efforts to practice according to the teachings, be liberated from birth and death, and to break away from reincarnation, in order to repay the benevolence from the guru!
 
In August 2015, I attended the puja in Japan. One afternoon, I went to visit Himeji Castle. As soon as I entered the castle, heavy rain began to fall. After the visit, I could only remain inside the castle and wait for the rain to stop. After waiting for a while, the rain stopped. While on the tour bus, I felt somewhat unwell, but I thought it was merely a cold and paid little attention to it. As I headed to the hot spring hotel where I was staying, the discomfort worsened. I had no appetite for dinner and thought that my cold was becoming more and more serious. After I did the evening prayer in the room together with the Dharma brothers, the feeling of physical discomfort immediately disappeared. At that moment, I was grateful for the blessings of Rinpoche and Dharma Protector Achi. Just as I was about to sleep, I felt that before me, there was a person dressed a white shirt and white trousers, whose imposing and powerful presence caused me to unconsciously step back. At that moment, I became aware that I was lying on the bed. I said silently in my mind, ‘The puja in Japan has already ended. We have to wait until the pujas in Taiwan are held, and I will then implore His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for giving you the help of Buddha Dharma.’ Not long after saying this, I fell asleep. After I returned to Taipei, my contact person informed me that Dorje Phurba Puja would be held on that Sunday. After Rinpoche completed performing the Dorje Phurba, I saw the person dressed completely in white whom I had seen that night flashing by in front of the mandala. In my heart, I marveled at the compassion (maitrī and karuṇā) of His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. I am grateful to Rinpoche!
 
In 2018, because I fell down, I struck my head, causing dizziness and the decline of my memory. I continuously applied traditional Chinese medicine for treatment. I applied a medicinal ointment at night, and washed my hair to remove the ointment clearly in the morning. This complicated and time-consuming process left me rushing to work every morning. Over time, I also grew tired of it. However, if I became lazy and did not apply the medicine, the dizziness would begin to occur. I implored Rinpoche for blessing me so that this condition would quickly improve. On the fortieth day, I suddenly recalled that when in elementary school, I was holding a bamboo stick and herding a group of ducklings. I struck the ground with the bamboo stick to make sounds so that the ducklings would walk faster. Before I knew it, I struck one of the ducklings on the head. That duckling fainted. Frightened, I hurriedly tried to wake it up by shaking it. Before long, the duckling regained consciousness and was able to walk again. At that moment, I realized that the suffering experienced by that duckling was the same as what I was experiencing. I repented to that duckling in my heart.
 
Rinpoche once expounded: ‘Why should we repent? To be reverent toward all sentient beings is true repentance. It is because of arrogance in past lifetimes that we commit all kinds of evil karma through body, speech, and mind. How will we not commit them again? It is to be reverent toward sentient beings.’ I repent for the harm I caused to that duckling. From then on, my dizziness improved significantly, and I was able to stop applying the medicine. However, the injured area would still hurt when pressed. By the end of 2023, my dizziness became more severe. I experienced motion sickness while driving, and even when reversing my car into a parking space, I became so dizzy that I felt like vomiting, affecting my daily commute to work. At that time, I began drinking the Glorious Jewel saffron. My dizziness improved significantly. After drinking it for a period of time, the scalp area on my head where I had previously injured no longer hurt at all. Even the numbness in my palms and the unexplained pain in my body improved. One of my colleagues also suffered from dizziness, and I recommended him to drink saffron. After drinking it for three months, some of his white hair became sparse black hair. Seeing this, I checked my own white hair and found sparse black hair growing among it as well. My skin became clearer, and my physical strength also improved a little!
 
A few years ago, my friend suffered an eye stroke. She spent a great deal of time and money, yet her condition never showed improvement. Because of drinking saffron, I was able to thread a needle without wearing glasses, I recommended her to drink the saffron. Later, her eye condition stabilized and did not worsen. I am grateful to Rinpoche for importing such a high-quality product, helping us alleviate our physical ailments.
 
In October 2020, I implored His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for transmitting the grand prostration and was granted. I am grateful to Rinpoche. In November, I fell from my motorcycle. A passerby helped me up and cared about my condition. I said that I could find a bonesetter by myself to treat my dislocated hand. He replied, ‘Your hand is already like this. How can you ride the motorcycle?’ Touching my hand, which was bent and could no longer be straightened, I realized that I truly could not ride. I then called my Oldest younger brother to come and pick me up. The senior spinal adjustment practitioner examined my hand and said that the bone was broken and that medicinal ointment could be applied to allow the bone to slowly heal. Because I did not want surgery, I first chose to apply traditional Chinese medicine. For two consecutive days, after morning prayer, I went to have the medicine changed. However, my entire arm became increasingly swollen. After morning prayer on the third day, I went to see a doctor and had an X-ray taken. Looking at the X-ray, the doctor said that bones from both sides were fractured, and the broken bones were angled, without a flat supporting surface to allow them to slowly recover. Surgery would first be required to fix the bones before they could gradually heal.

I immediately underwent the hospital admission procedures. Due to Rinpoche’s blessings, I was extremely fortunate to obtain a hospital ward the next day and was scheduled for the first surgery on the following day. As I entered the operating room, I visualized Rinpoche blessing me from above my head. When I regained consciousness, I was already in the hospital ward. After the operation, I applied Bao Yuan Gao to the wound, and it healed remarkably well. Two weeks later, the stitches were removed. I sought another doctor to apply medicinal ointment. After examining my hand, he said that the surgery had been very successful. Five months later, I underwent another operation to remove the metal plate used for fixation. I know that due to the guru’s continuous blessings, my recovery went extremely smoothly and progressed more quickly. By the forty-fifth day, I was able to perform grand prostrations again.

I am grateful to the guru for allowing me to receive a lessened effect of heavy karmic retribution. If not for the guru’s protection, how could I have continued to perform the grand prostrations! Here I repent that my evil karma of killing from accumulated past kalpas and lifetimes is deep and heavy. In this life, only by completely surrendering to the guru, accomplishing what Rinpoche has expounded, ‘to correct all behaviors, thoughts, and habits that lead one reincarnate,’ practicing according to the teachings, developing a firm sense of renunciation, and being liberated from birth and death, can I repay the guru’s benevolence in teaching the Buddha Dharma! Here I also repent that I did not have the mind of making offerings toward the guru, I was irreverent to the guru and the Three Jewels, and I did not take my full effort after the guru transmitted the Dharma. After completing performing the grand prostrations for 110,000 times, I implored the guru for the Dharma of Hundred-Syllable Mantra twice, and Rinpoche both said, ‘You performed the prostrations so slowly.’ Yes! When I looked back at my record of performing the grand prostrations, I did not have a fixed schedule. My behavior was slacking off and lazy. I would just perform grand prostrations or do morning and evening prayers only after finishing trivial matters. Naturally, my pace of performing grand prostrations was just slow. I am grateful for the guru’s teachings, which allowed me to correct my mindset toward learning Buddhism and establish the correct way of practice. I am grateful to Rinpoche.
 
In 2023, my friend returned to Taipei from Macau. She had previously suffered a stroke and had not returned to Taipei for a long time. I went to visit her, and she said I had become slimmer. I then shared with her the changes that Pu’er tea had brought to me. She immediately bought several boxes of Pu’er tea to take home. A few months later, she said that her post-stroke sequelae, poor memory, and physical mobility had all improved, and she had lost several pounds. Therefore, whenever she returned to Taipei, she would ask me to help her buy a large box to bring back to Macau. Since menopause, I have gradually become fatter and was unable to lose it no matter what I did. However, since July 2018, I began drinking a large amount of Pu’er tea every morning, and my weight has remained at the figure I had when I was young and has not rebounded. The dark spots on my face have also faded significantly. In particular, when I drink Pu’er tea with an empty stomach before performing grand prostrations, my body feels very light. Once, I thought that drinking a cup of five-grain drink would give me more energy to perform grand prostrations. However, when I performed them, my body felt very heavy. Pu’er tea was called ‘Xian tea’ in ancient times; it truly lives up to its name.
 
In our family, Bao Yuan Gao is the product specifically requested by the children. Whether it is a scraped wound or a mosquito bite, Bao Yuan Gao must be applied. On one occasion, my nephew fell while riding an electric bicycle and suffered severe abrasions on half of his face, as well as on his hands and feet. I applied a thick layer of Bao Yuan Gao to the wounds. The next day, after I returned from work and applied the Bao Yuan Gao again, I asked him, ‘After you remove the gauze with the Bao Yuan Gao before going to school, the wounds hurt, don’t they?’ He nodded. I said, ‘After applying Bao Yuan Gao tonight, don’t remove the gauze. Wait until it is time to change the medicine, then you take off the gauze.’ In order to avoid the pain from the wounds, he was not afraid of looking ugly and went to school with gauze covering half of his face. In less than a week, the wounds completely healed. No scars were left from the wounds on his face, hands, or feet. Bao Yuan Gao is also the best gift that I give to my family members and friends.

Rinpoche once expounded, ‘maitrī’ means that we have the ability to exchange our own good for the bad of sentient beings. A friend of mine, Mr. Zhang, suffered from cancer and lived in unbearable pain every day. He had the fate to seek an audience with His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche and implore for Rinpoche’s blessings. As he was leaving the Buddhist Center, I merely helped him take off his socks and put on his shoes, and I immediately felt extremely uncomfortable throughout my entire body. After returning home, Mr. Zhang, listening to Rinpoche’s words, immediately became vegetarian, and he felt much more comfortable after receiving Rinpoche’s blessings. Rinpoche’s boundless compassion (maitrī and karuṇā) is just like Bodhisattva Avolokiteshvara, who hears the sound of sentient beings and saves them from suffering and hardship, rescuing sentient beings with fate. Rinpoche is a rare and difficult-to-encounter living Bodhisattva!
 
His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche once expounded that we should not become overly tired and take care not to catch a cold. Because of my own attachment, afflictions, and self-righteousness, I did not listen; within the two-month period from last December until before the Lunar New Year this year, I caught colds three times and was ill for more than forty days in total. During that period, I dreamed three times that Rinpoche was blessing me. When we encounter difficulties, Rinpoche extends his hand to pull us up, treating the disciples as if they were pearls and treasures. In 2022, Rinpoche allowed disciples to freely participate in the recitation of the Aparimitāyurjñāna Sutra at the Buddhist Center. I continually used being too busy with work as an excuse and did not actively participate in the recitation of the Aparimitāyurjñāna Sutra at the Buddhist Center. By the time I had arranged my schedule, the recitation of the Aparimitāyurjñāna Sutra had ended at the Buddhist Center. I have always felt guilty about this matter. Rinpoche once expounded: ‘Only a guru who is in accordance with the Dharma can help you be liberated from birth and death, and take care of you through lifetime after lifetime until you attain Buddhahood. Therefore, the guru is even closer than your parents. The best way to learn Buddhism is to listen to the guru.’ In this lifetime, I was able to take refuge in Rinpoche to learn Buddha Dharma, and I did not cherish it nor did I listen to the guru’s words. I repent that this is how I have repaid the guru’s benevolence, which is as vast as the ocean.
 
Lastly, I would like to openly repent to His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche: My parents were farmers and also raised pigs, making their livelihood through killing. In order to raise their children, they intentionally and unintentionally harmed sentient beings. On behalf of my parents, I repent to all the sentient beings that they killed or harmed. While working in the department of obstetrics and gynecology, I frequently participated in work related to induced abortion procedures; I also lent money to a classmate for an abortion, suggested my sister-in-law to have an abortion, and I myself also had an abortion. From childhood to adulthood, I consumed countless chickens, ducks, fish, geese, loaches, and other livestock, thereby committing enormous karma of killing. Today, I repent and vow never to commit them again.

I stole by using company time to handle my personal affairs, took stationery home for use, and took things without being given permission, committing the stealing. Today, I repent and vow never to commit them again. I was involved with a married man and committed sexual misconduct. Today, I repent and vow never to commit this act again. I spoke harsh words, engaged in divisive speech, false speech, and frivolous talk. Today, I repent and vow never to commit them again. I drank alcohol and violated the Five Precepts. Today, I repent and vow never to commit this act again. For all the greed, hatred, ignorance, arrogance, doubt, and the Ten Non-meritorious Karma that I have committed, I repent for all these vices and vow never to commit them again. Here, on behalf of my parents throughout the Six Realms through accumulated past lifetimes, I repent to all the sentient beings they harmed. I also repent for the killing, stealing, sexual misconduct, false speech, alcohol consumption, and the Ten Non-meritorious Karma that I have committed through accumulated past lifetimes; these various vices and karma are too numerous to be fully recorded.

Throughout accumulated past kalpas and lifetimes, I have cared only about my own suffering and happiness, committing all kinds of evil deeds through body, speech, and mind, and never considered that because of this, the harm I caused to sentient beings let them to give rise to various thoughts of greed, hatred, and ignorance. I repent to the sentient beings whom I have harmed, and earnestly implore the guru for blessing me to eliminate the greed, hatred, ignorance, arrogance, and doubt in my mind. I must strive to achieve the attainment of bodhicitta in order to repay the benevolence of the guru, the Buddha, my parents, and sentient beings!

I pray for His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s good health; the Dharma wheel turns unceasingly; the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Monastery of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche benefits all sentient beings; Rinpoche’s Dharma lineage spreads eternally! I thank all fellow believers and Dharma brothers for listening patiently!

　　　　　                                                   Reverently written by disciple Bai Shu Yue, Group Six, 

 on May 24, 2026

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