1310：Appreciation to the Guru for Compassionately Transferring My Mother-in-law’s Consciousness and Teaching this Dull-witted Disciple

Prostrations to His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, His Holiness the Drikung Kyabgon Chetsang, the Lineage gurus, the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, and Dharma Protector Achi. Greetings, fellow believers and Dharma brothers, I am Jian Su Luan from Group Five, and my Dharma name is Hui Dui Drolma. I am grateful to His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for granting me to share with you how the guru has transferred my mother-in-law’s consciousness and bestowed me the incomparably wondrous teachings.

My fate origin for taking refuge began in 2009, when I developed facial nerve paralysis. I sought both Western and Chinese medical treatment, and even implored the gods and asked for divination, yet none were effective. Just as I was frustrated and lost heart, because of a colleague’s introduction, I sought an audience with Rinpoche. Rinpoche expounded that my facial nerve paralysis was caused by poisoning from eating seafood. Under Rinpoche’s blessings, my facial nerve paralysis healed without medication. For me, who believed only in science and doctors, this was utterly astonishing. I personally witnessed Rinpoche’s compassion and the incomparable wonder of Buddha Dharma. This illness gave rise to the fate for my taking refuge and learning Buddhism. Please refer to Article No. 721 and No. 986 on the Traces of Liberating Beings for details.

First, I will share with you my mother-in-law receiving consciousness transferring from Rinpoche. Two years ago, my mother-in-law began to suffer from severe itching all over her body, and it did not improve after she saw doctors and took medication. At night, the itching was so severe that she could not sleep, and she often woke up crying in the middle of the night and lost her appetite. Through examinations, the doctors found that she had the stomach cancer. She underwent surgery and chemotherapy under the arrangements of her sons and daughters. During her hospitalization, my mother-in-law often told me that she was in pain and felt unwell, and her mind was filled with agitation and distress. I played recordings of Rinpoche chanting the Great Six-Syllable Mantra, the heart mantra of Yidam Parnashavari, the Auspicious Dharmadhatu Prayer, and the Aspiration Prayer for Rebirth in the Pure Land of Utmost Bliss for my mother-in-law; only then was she able to sleep peacefully. I also shared with her the merits of donating to the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Monastery of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, and she joyfully made her first donation. After surgery and chemotherapy for the cancer, my mother-in-law’s bodily functions were impaired, and her weight dropped to just over thirty kilograms; lacking the strength, she had to be seated on a wheelchair. After being discharged, she received treatment at the Glorious Jewel Chinese Medicine Clinic, and recuperated with Bao Yuan Gao and energizing tonyu. In just a few months, she went from using a wheelchair to being able to walk, and her skin no longer itched. She happily told relatives and friends that the Glorious Jewel Chinese Medicine Clinic is excellent.

I told my family that my mother-in-law is elderly, and that if she falls ill again, it would be fine to just recuperate at the Chinese Medicine Clinic, as she cannot endure hardship from treatment. However, my family did not accept this. Last December, my mother-in-law was hospitalized again due to a lung infection. Because her body had been severely weakened by previous chemotherapy, the doctors said that some of her organs were failing and that she had little time left. When I visited my mother-in-law, I would always whisper in her ear, reminding her to remember His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s Dharma appearance and the sound of Rinpoche chanting mantras; my mother-in-law would invariably nod. On the afternoon of January 1 this year, I went to the hospital to visit my mother-in-law. As usual, I whispered in her ear to remind her to remember Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, and after she nodded, she fell asleep with the sound of Rinpoche chanting mantras. Soon after, when the nurse routinely checked her blood pressure, she discovered that my mother-in-law had no pulse and had already passed away. I immediately administered the nectar pill benevolently bestowed by Rinpoche. After taking the nectar pill, my mother-in-law’s mouth closed tightly. I am grateful to Rinpoche.

However, because I had not corrected my body, speech, and mind, I failed to enable my husband and sister-in-law to believe in the incomparable wonder of Buddha Dharma; therefore, my family did not implore Rinpoche for transferring consciousness. My mother-in-law treated me very well during her lifetime, yet we did not have the fate to implore Rinpoche for transferring her consciousness. I felt self-reproach in my mind. Yet something miraculous occurred; after my mother-in-law was cremated on January 18, a neat, round hole appeared on her skull, which was an auspicious sign of having received consciousness transferring from His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. It was truly incredible!
 
My mother-in-law was a Christian, loved eating seafood, and did not believe in the Three Jewels in this lifetime. This made me think of Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva’s mother; because she loved eating turtle eggs and disparaged the Three Jewels during her lifetime, she also had to fall into Hell after death. Simply because my mother-in-law had once attended the Great Indiscriminate Amitabha Puja for Transferring Consciousness presided over by Rinpoche, and had donated to the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Monastery of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche and heard Rinpoche chanting mantras when she was sick, she was able to immediately took the nectar pill benevolently bestowed by Rinpoche after her passing. All of this is entirely the benevolent bestowal from Rinpoche. As long as sentient beings have even the slightest virtuous fate with Rinpoche, Rinpoche cannot bear for any sentient being to suffer, and Rinpoche’s compassionate vow to rescue sentient beings permeates the void. With utmost sincerity, I am grateful to Rinpoche.
 
Next, I will share with you Rinpoche’s incomparably wondrous teachings upon me. In 2010, when I implored Rinpoche for permission to attend the pujas and to take refuge, Rinpoche once expounded, ‘You have many problems.’ I mistakenly thought that I was terrible and unqualified to implore for taking refuge, and thus attended the Sunday pujas as a believer for over two years. Until one day, Rinpoche expounded, ‘Do not think that only after you correct yourself, will you come to implore for taking refuge. If you could correct yourself on your own, there would be no need to come and implore for taking refuge.’ Only at that moment did I realize that it is after taking refuge that one can correct oneself under Rinpoche’s teachings and blessings. Simply being self-righteous, having numerous karmic obstacles and lacking good fortune, I often couldn’t comprehend Rinpoche’s teachings. Thus, I have ceaselessly received Rinpoche’s repeatedly corrective training and blessings since taking refuge. I am grateful to Rinpoche.

In 2013, when Rinpoche benevolently bestowed refuge upon me, Rinpoche expounded, ‘If you miss a single puja, do not come again in the future.’ I am grateful to Rinpoche for pointing out that being prone to laxity and lacking perseverance are the evil habits I should overcome in learning Buddhism. When I had just taken refuge, I once sought instruction from Rinpoche in front of the mandala at my home, ‘What is the greatest problem for me to be liberated from birth and death and break away from reincarnation in this lifetime?’ That night, I had a dream, of which I was a large white python. Rinpoche has expounded many times that those with a heavy mind of hatred will become large pythons after death.  Hatred was my greatest problem.

In 2020, I signed up to implore Rinpoche to transmit the grand prostration among the Four Extraordinary Foundations of Vajrayana Ngondro. Rinpoche scolded， ‘You are all believers seeking blessings, not truly imploring for it.’ After a while, I felt I might have thought clearly, so I mustered the courage to implore again. This time, Rinpoche pointed at me and scolded, ‘With such intense hatred, in the future you would even resent me.’ At that moment, my mind went completely blank, and I thought: How could I harbor hatred toward the guru whose benevolence is as immense as a mountain? This is not only ungrateful but also a grave act of rebellion. I did not clearly understand what Rinpoche was referring to in that instant, but I knew that every word Rinpoche spoke was blessing me, helping me to get liberated from birth and death, and to be reborn in the Pure Land.
 
In July 2023, I implored Rinpoche for permission to perform grand prostrations at the Buddhist Center. Rinpoche asked, ‘Why do you want to perform grand prostrations?’ I replied, ‘Seeing sentient beings harming others out of greed, hatred, and ignorance, and also causing themselves suffering, I wish to perform grand prostrations on behalf of sentient beings to repent.’ Rinpoche expounded, ‘It’s nonsense.’ During the puja the following day, Rinpoche expounded that it was I myself who felt harmed by others’ greed, hatred, and ignorance. Feeling resentful and unwilling to accept this, I therefore wished to perform grand prostrations, hoping that others would no longer harm me through their greed, hatred, and ignorance. If someone harms me by greed, hatred, and ignorance, it is absolutely because of my own past actions; now the karmic result simply has ripened, yet I do not want it and pretend to be compassionate to sentient beings by performing grand prostrations. Everything spoken by the mouth and every action performed begins with the mind. There is no such thing as speaking without intention—no word is ever spoken mindlessly. Words used to scold or curse others are never merely blurted out. Those who habitually lash out at others and speak harshly to people will, in their next life, most certainly be reborn as a big venomous snake. Then Rinpoche expounded: ‘Before going to sleep every day, one should use the Thirty-Seven Practices of Bodhisattvas to examine whether one is a disciple of the Buddha. Purifying the mind is highly important.’I am grateful for Rinpoche’s teachings that directly point to our mind. Since then, I recited the Thirty-Seven Practices of Bodhisattvas every day to correct my mind of hatred, but as I was busy with daily work and household affairs, I unknowingly became slack and lazy again.
 
During the 2023 Lunar New Year, I went home and shared the precious videos on the Glorious Jewel website with my mother, and she was eventually willing to go to the Buddhist Center to seek an audience with Rinpoche. On February 24, 2024, I went with my mother to seek an audience with the guru. That day, my mother was restless at the Buddhist Center and kept speaking chaotically. Feeling extremely unsettled myself, I told my mother, ‘In a moment, when we go forward to seek an audience, you just prostrate and don’t say anything.’ In that instant, an irreverent thought arose: ‘In a moment, after I make the offering, we should go back hurriedly to prevent my mother from talking nonsense.’
 
When seeking an audience with the guru, I said, ‘The disciple’s mother and disciple are grateful to Rinpoche.’ (Out of haste, I immediately continued to say), ‘We make an offering to Rinpoche.’ Rinpoche expounded: ‘Is your mother my disciple? If she is not a disciple, I will not accept her offerings. Don’t you know this?’

Rinpoche did not accept my offerings. At that moment, I knew that I was wrong, but in fact I did not clearly understand what my fault was. Thereafter, I sought an audience for six consecutive weeks. Rinpoche scolded, ‘When the mind is not correct, what you say will be wrong, and what you implore will also be wrong. You have no pure mind nor do you have the reverent mind. You have always regarded me as an ordinary person. Now, you are listening to the Ratnakuta Sutra, and you are afraid. You have never been reverent to me.’At the sixth week I sought an audience with the guru, Rinpoche instructed: ‘Go and talk with the board of directors and supervisors.’ Only when Rinpoche didn’t accept my offerings did I truly realize that my problem was severe. Only then did I begin to earnestly examine my body, speech, and mind. The following is my repentance:

 1. Arrogant in mind and isn’t grateful.

I have always lived and worked stably and smoothly under the guru’s blessings and protection, thinking myself an obedient disciple. However, when my mother expressed her wish to seek an audience with Rinpoche, the first thought that arose in my mind was actually that ‘After performing grand prostrations at the Buddhist Center for over a year, it has finally worked,’ rather than being grateful to the guru for compassionately attracting (Puja Teachings Index 22) and blessing my mother, which enabled her to have the incomparably wondrous fate to meet the great practitioner. I even mistook the guru’s merits as my own achievements, being arrogant in my mind and not to be grateful. I repent for being ignorant and ungrateful. 
 
2. Not truly believe in the guru.

I had always believed that I truly believed in the guru and held deep reverence for him, but in reality, I did not. On the day we sought an audience with the guru, my mother was emotionally unsettled, and my own mind became disturbed as well. If I had truly kept the guru in my mind—if I had truly believed in the guru’s compassionate attraction (Puja Teachings Index 22) of sentient beings, and believed that under all circumstances the guru always makes the best arrangements and bestows the greatest blessings for sentient beings—then, in accordance with the conditions of my mother seeking the audience, I would not have worried, my mind would not have been unsettled, and afflictions would not have arisen. I repent for my lack of true faith in the guru.

3. Not recognize that ‘[The mind of] attachment to loved ones wavers like water,’ and take advantage of the guru to satisfy my greedy thoughts.
 
In my childhood, my family circumstances were straitened, and my mother endured great hardship to raise us and to protect me. I was deeply attached to my mother, regarding her as the most important person, not recognizing that ‘[The mind of] attachment to loved ones wavers like water.’ Actually, the way my mother treated me also arose from the fate between us. After taking refuge in Rinpoche and receiving Rinpoche’s protection and blessings, my facial nerve paralysis was healed; Rinpoche taught me Buddha Dharma, blessed my family to be away from the suffering of physical and mental illness, and transferred the consciousness of my deceased family member. Knowing Rinpoche’s compassion and incredibility, a normal person should feel grateful, seize the opportunity, cherish His Eminence guru, and diligently learn Buddhism. Yet I gave rise to greed and, shockingly, wanted to take advantage of Rinpoche’s compassion and incredibility to satisfy my own desire—so that when my mother passes away, she will be able to receive consciousness transferring from Rinpoche. I set three goals. First, I persistently donated, on behalf of my mother, to the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Monastery of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche; next, I implored to perform the grand prostrations in the Buddhist Center for my mother; and then I would bring my mother to seek an audience with Rinpoche. All of these were done for the sake of my mother receiving consciousness transferring from Rinpoche after her passing, not with a mind of gratitude, reverence, or purity.
 
Ostensibly, it seemed that I was helping my mother perform virtuous deeds and accumulate good fortune, but my motivation was ‘craving attachment’ and was ‘purpose-driven’, which is evil. I did not consider that each person’s karma and fate are different; those who have no fate with Rinpoche cannot be rescued by Rinpoche; those who do not believe in Rinpoche also cannot be rescued by Rinpoche. I did not believe in karma and fate. How would I have thought if a hole had not appeared above my mother’s head at her passing? First, I would have doubted the guru, thinking, ‘How could this happen? Haven’t all the actions needed already been done? Why didn’t Rinpoche dig a hole on the top of my mother’s head?’ Then a mind of hatred would have arisen, complaining about the guru… This is why Rinpoche expounded, ‘When the mind is not correct, what you say will be wrong, and what you implore will also be wrong.’ I was irreverent to the guru and made offerings without the mind of purity and reverence.
 
I finally understood why, in 2020, when I implored for the grand prostration among the Four Extraordinary Foundations of Vajrayana Ngondro, Rinpoche expounded that with such a heavy mind of hatred, I would even resent the guru in the future. It turns out that years ago the guru had already seen that my mind of hatred was extremely heavy, and had warned me in advance, but with my ignorance and insufficient good fortune, I failed to understand.
 
His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche repeatedly expounded that disciples should rigorously abide by the Five Precepts and the Ten Meritorious Acts, and examine their body, speech, and mind using the Thirty-Seven Practices of Bodhisattvas. I repent that, due to my slackness and laziness, I didn’t abide by the precepts in accordance with the teachings， nor did I follow the Thirty-Seven Practices of Bodhisattvas to examine and correct my faults, thereby repeating one mistake after another. I am grateful to the guru for his compassion, repeatedly admonishing and guiding me, correcting my deviated mind, and bestowing me once again the opportunity to make offerings to the guru. From now on, I will ceaselessly guard my body, speech, and mind, follow the teachings without laziness, and daily examine and repent according to the Thirty-Seven Practices of Bodhisattvas. I pray to be a disciple of His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche through lifetime after lifetime. I implore to be reborn in Amitabha’s Pure Land.

I pray for His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s good health, longevity, and auspiciousness; his Buddha Dharma activities flourish; his Dharma lineage spreads eternally; and the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Monastery of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche benefits all sentient beings. I am grateful to the guru and thank all fellow believers and Dharma brothers.
 

 Respectfully written by disciple Jian Su Luan, Group Five, 

 on December 7, 2025

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