1324：Appreciation to Rinpoche for Transferring My Child’s Consciousness

Prostrations to His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, His Holiness the Drikung Kyabgon Chetsang, the Lineage gurus, Dharma Protector Achi, and the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas. Greetings, fellow believers and Dharma brothers. I am Huang Qian Ting from Group Two, and my Dharma name is Hui Sen Drolma; my husband is Guo Yan Ting from Group Seven, and my son and daughter separately are Guo Yao Rui and Guo Pin Ling, both from Group Two. I am grateful to His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for bestowing me this opportunity to publicly praise the guru as well as his help towards me.

When I had just come to know my husband, one time he said that on the holiday, he would attend a great puja with more than twenty thousand people, the Great Indiscriminate Amitabha Puja for Transferring Consciousness held at the Nangang Exhibition Center by a meritorious Vajra Guru, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. Upon hearing this, I instinctively and proactively asked whether I could also go together to attend the Great Puja. In the past, I had accompanied my mother to other pujas, but it was mostly in response to elders’ invitations and not from the bottom of my own heart. However, upon hearing for the first time the Dharma name of His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, shockingly, the thought of attending the Great Puja immediately arose in my heart. A Dharma brother reminded my husband to relay to me that before attending the puja, I must be a pure vegetarian and could not eat meat; I immediately agreed, too. After registering, when I learned that the consciousness of deceased relatives could be transferred, I thought that I could implore for the consciousness transferring of the child I had aborted. Because this abortion matter had always weighed heavily on my heart, upon hearing that I could attend the Great Indiscriminate Amitabha Puja for Transferring Consciousness presided over by Rinpoche, I thought that the child I had harmed must also eagerly wish to attend, for sentient beings knew who could truly help them; this is Rinpoche’s compassionately (maitrī and karuṇā) attractive (Puja Teachings Index 22) power. I am grateful to Rinpoche.
 
When entering the Great Puja venue for the first time, I was exceedingly shocked in my mind; it was quite different from the pujas I had attended before and was extremely solemn. After the puja began, I could not help but keep shedding tears, feeling deeply sad and sorrowful. During the puja, I saw Rinpoche on the Dharma throne with a kind countenance, unceasingly shaking the drum in his hand; after the puja ended, Rinpoche descended from the Dharma throne at the very first moment and performed circumambulation to purify the entire venue by sprinkling water, vigorously raising a large bundle of Reineckia carnea (Chinese lucky grass) in his hand to sprinkle. A large bundle of Reineckia carnea soaked with nectar water became extremely heavy, and Rinpoche tirelessly purified the whole venue by sprinkling water again and again, which was extremely strenuous. Later, I just learned that Rinpoche has an S-shaped curvature of the spine and that there had been no cartilage in his joints. Rinpoche didn’t forsake sentient beings, and Rinpoche’s every thought was for them, setting aside his own pain. At that moment, I was grateful to Rinpoche for allowing me to have the fate to attend the Great Puja for Transferring Consciousness, which was so incomparably wondrous and solemn.
 
Before getting married, I confessed a matter in my heart to my husband that I had previously had an abortion. At that moment, my husband told me that I must go to seek an audience with His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, and that only Rinpoche could help me. Abortion was a terrible and quite serious matter, and my husband reminded me that if I sought an audience with Rinpoche, I must be reverent and must not treat Rinpoche as a fortune-teller, that Rinpoche was a meritorious great practitioner, and that I must be reverent. My husband also suggested that I could first reverently read Rinpoche’s book Happiness and Suffering.

On the day I sought an audience with His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, I knelt before the guru’s throne. Rinpoche compassionately (maitrī and karuṇā) asked, ‘What is it?’ I immediately reported, ‘I previously had the abortion and implore Rinpoche to transfer the consciousness.’ Rinpoche then asked how many children I had aborted. I answered, two. I am grateful to Rinpoche for compassionately (maitrī and karuṇā) permitting me to attend the monthly Chod puja. At that moment, sorrow welled up within me, and tears flowed uncontrollably. Rinpoche looked at me and expounded, ‘I am not helping you; I am helping those two children.’ At that time, I, who was foolish and ignorant, was completely unable to comprehend the deep meaning behind this sentence. Later, I heard Rinpoche expound, ‘The sin of abortion is the same as killing, which will make one fall into Hell.’ All lives are equal. Because of my selfishness and self-interest, unwilling to take on the responsibility of raising children, I deprived the right of innocent lives to survive. I am grateful to Rinpoche for compassionately (maitrī and karuṇā) not bearing to see sentient beings suffer. I repent.

At that time, I obtained permission after imploration to attend the Chod puja once each month. It is difficult to attain the human form, to listen to the Dharma, and to encounter a guru. Just because I encountered His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche when getting married, my husband and I decided to hold a vegetarian banquet, and we also smoothly obtained the consent of the parents from both sides. As for all of this, we should be grateful to Rinpoche, because if I had not encountered Rinpoche, I wouldn’t have known how many more acts of killing sentient beings I would have committed.
 
After getting married, we welcomed our eldest son. However, just at his one-month day after birth, he developed a high fever for unknown reasons and was immediately taken to the emergency room of the hospital for examination. The doctor at the emergency room was concerned that the child might have meningitis, performed the lumbar puncture for testing, and administered antibiotics. After one week, the fever subsided, and my son was discharged, but in the end, the hospital was still unable to discover any cause for the illness after examinations. Meanwhile, when the child reached four months and was about to start complementary foods, I was always extremely worried that my father-in-law would feed the child meat. My husband also kept communicating with my father-in-law to let the child be a vegetarian, but my father-in-law firmly opposed it, believing that a vegetarian diet makes the child lack nutrition. Because of my father-in-law’s insistence, I was constantly worried about what we should do if the child ate meat.
 
Only when the child was four months old did I think of bringing the child to express gratitude and seek an audience with Rinpoche. Rinpoche asked, ‘What is it?’ I said that I brought the child to be grateful to Rinpoche. During the audience, the child kept crying. Rinpoche asked, ‘How old is the child?’ I answered that he was four months old. Rinpoche compassionately (maitrī and karuṇā) expounded, ‘Why do you bring him so late? This child has already been spoiled.’ Rinpoche asked us to come forward, took the child, held him in Rinpoche’s arms, and compassionately (maitrī and karuṇā) blessed my eldest son for a long while. Then, my eldest son stopped crying. Rinpoche then asked if there was anything else. I implored Rinpoche to bless the child so that he could be a vegetarian in this lifetime. Rinpoche smiled, and we stepped back. After returning home that day, we again communicated with my father-in-law about letting the child be a vegetarian. Something miraculous happened; my father-in-law was unexpectedly very calm and quickly agreed that if we wished the child to be a vegetarian, the child would just be a vegetarian. At that moment, I felt extremely delighted in my heart that the child could be a vegetarian together with us. All of this is to be grateful to Rinpoche’s compassionate (maitrī and karuṇā) blessings.

Here, I am grateful for the business units developed by Rinpoche, all of which originated from the aim of benefiting sentient beings, including Japanese food products and the Chinese Medicine Clinic. I would like to especially share with all Dharma brothers and fellow believers the efficacy of Bao Yuan Gao. On one occasion, while my mother-in-law was on her way home, she passed by a building. Due to a sudden change in the weather, tiles on the building burst, and fragments flew out, cutting the web of her hand. At that time, blood flowed profusely, and she was sent to the hospital urgently for suturing. When my mother-in-law returned home, her palm was covered with bruising, and because the wound was extremely deep, it was highly possible that the tendons had been injured. I immediately shared with my mother-in-law the wondrous effects of Bao Yuan Gao and applied it generously and continuously over her entire palm every day. In just one week, the originally severe bruising miraculously dissipated and returned to a normal skin tone. Even my mother-in-law’s friends were remarkably astonished upon seeing this and asked one after another how she could recover so quickly. I am grateful to Rinpoche!

In addition, on one occasion, while my daughter was running, she accidentally sprained her foot; the entire foot became swollen, and she was unable to walk. After returning home, my daughter immediately applied Bao Yuan Gao repeatedly, reapplying it every few hours. The next day, my daughter’s foot could already touch the ground. On the second day, applying it every one to two hours, my daughter’s foot gradually began to be able to walk. In just three days, my daughter could walk normally and go to school. Her teacher asked her with surprise whether there was a professional therapist at home. I deeply know that all of this is the guru’s compassion (maitrī and karuṇā) and blessings. I am grateful to Rinpoche for making such an excellent ointment to benefit sentient beings.
 
In the past, I grew up under my parents’ meticulous care and became accustomed to being self-centered. Whenever I caused trouble or encountered difficulties, there were always family members shielding me from harm in the back, which led me to habitually attribute all mistakes to the environment and others, letting me long evade the responsibilities I should have borne. When conflicts arose, I would only cling to my own stance. Once life did not go as I wished, I just wanted to solve it immediately and turned to asking the gods for a prophecy, attempting to find an outlet and answers. I did not believe in karma and never once calmed my mind to examine myself. In the workplace, I once harbored illusions of gaining without effort, lacked patience with colleagues, and would even easily lose my temper over disagreements; toward my boss, I only complained about unfair treatment, yet I overlooked the stable life this job brought me. I always thought others were at fault and never learned to be considerate and grateful. Thinking only of my own momentary convenience, I instead caused trouble for others; those who lived with me were in constant fear every day.
 
Rinpoche once expounded, ‘On what basis do you only require others to treat you well? Have you ever thought about how well you treat others? On what basis do you only ask others to solely treat you well?’ After hearing Rinpoche’s expounding, I deeply realized that the world does not revolve around me. I began to learn to take responsibility and let go of the attachment to gaining without effort and blaming others for everything; all faults were my own, and when conflicts arose, I considered matters from the other person’s perspective. All these changes are due to Rinpoche’s earnest teachings, which enable me to start to realize that all of this stems from my own problems.

Here, I repent to all sentient beings I have harmed. I committed the karma of killing through two abortions, yet was unaware of it by myself; I repent. Being attached to and craving relationships, and having violated the precept against sexual misconduct, I repent. For stealing, harsh speech, divisive speech, and the strong mind of hatred, I repent. For raising my voice at my parents, talking back to them, lacking patience, and being unfilial, I repent. I did not deeply believe in karma, was ungrateful, only feared that I might suffer loss and be taken advantage of, was selfish and self-interested, merely seeking to avoid harm to myself without regard for others, wanted only good outcomes of everything and rejected the bad, and had heavy thoughts of greed, I repent. I even prostrated in the virtuous deeds permitted by the guru, including donating to the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Monastery of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, and had no compassion toward sentient beings, I repent. For causing sentient beings to give rise to afflictions, and for easily losing my temper when communicating with colleagues and family members, I repent.
 
Every word and every sentence Rinpoche expounds are solely for sentient beings and never for himself, whereas I, who was ignorant, think only of myself and never, moment by moment, for sentient beings. Under Rinpoche’s protection, I, even more, should seriously cherish the opportunity to be able to follow the guru in learning Buddhism, and strive to correct my body, speech, and mind. It is difficult to attain the human form, to listen to the Dharma and to encounter a guru. I will follow the guru in learning Buddhism through lifetime after lifetime until being liberated from birth and death.
 
I pray for His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s good health, longevity, and auspiciousness; his Buddha Dharma activities flourish; his Dharma lineage spreads eternally; all at the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Monastery of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche are perfect and smooth, benefiting all sentient beings. I thank all fellow believers and Dharma brothers for listening patiently. 

 
                                          Respectfully written by disciple Huang Qian Ting, Group Two, 

 on April 5, 2026

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