644:Do Not Slack Off

Praise be unto His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, His Holiness the Drikung Kyabgon Chetsang, Dharma Protector Achi, and the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas!

I am Jiang Zhixin of Group Eight. Today I would like to report to you, honorable believers and Dharma brothers, and share an account of how His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche saved me.

My entire family took refuge in 2003. That year, my mother-in-law suddenly suffered a brainstem hemorrhage one night, and had to be rushed to the emergency room. As a result of this causal origination, and by way of a Dharma brother’s introduction, we were given the opportunity to seek an audience with His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, in whom we later took refuge.

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At the end of 2005, my husband was fortunate enough to accompany Rinpoche to Japan. One morning, a Dharma brother passed on a message to my husband from the guru that something was the matter with my brain, and that after returning to Taiwan, my husband should take me to see Rinpoche. In Taiwan at the time, I was already feeling some physical discomfort; I would frequently faint without realizing it, my hands would shake, the disparity in vision between my two eyes had gotten extreme, and I often had trouble breathing. Prior to seeking an audience with Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, I even fell down and broke a rib. Several times over the next few days, I felt I would not be able to endure my discomfort any longer. With the help of visualizing the guru and taking nectar pills, however, I made it to my audience with Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. Upon seeing me, the guru blessed me and then told me to hold out my hand. After using his hand from a few inches above my palm to scan for ten seconds, he told me, “An angioma has developed in your brain; it is benign,” and gestured to show me how big it was.

Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche said that my illness had come about because my family and I used to picnic down by the creek; someone had caught water-dwelling critters there, and I had helped that person doing it. The guru said my karmic retribution had manifested in the form of this illness, and told me to go to the hospital to get it checked out. Meanwhile, he instructed me to tell my family members, “It is not that practicing Buddhism will prevent anything bad from happening to you; you must face the adverse effects of any evil you have committed in the past. If that were not the case, then neither would any good deeds you do today result in positive consequences tomorrow. Good and evil cannot cancel each other out.” Rinpoche compassionately reminded me not to let my family members say anything that would slander the Buddha, and said that he would help me.

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The following week, I went straight to the hospital for some examinations. The doctor arranged a CT scan for me, but the results did not reveal anything out of the ordinary. A few days later, the hospital arranged a more thorough MRI scan for me, but again nothing was detected. When we reported the results to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, he told us I should go to a different hospital for a re-examination, so I did. There the doctor asked what was bothering me, and said he would like me to stay at the hospital for a week for some detailed examinations. I said to him, “My guru, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, told me an angioma has grown on a blood vessel in my brain.” The doctor thought I was being overly superstitious, but agreed to check for brain angioma. After that, an MRA scan was booked, and I also received intravenous contrast.

The results came out a few days later, and sure enough, at the junction of my right orbit and brain, a 0.9-centimeter angioma had been discovered. It was putting pressure on my optic nerve, causing my vision in that eye to fall below 20/100. All of these examination results were identical to what Rinpoche had predicted. Even while in Japan, without having seen me, the guru had known there was something wrong with my brain; then, after seeing me and only scanning my palm with his hand for ten seconds, he had known precisely what the matter was, and had even told me the cause of my condition. Thereupon, I had gone to the hospital to have three major tests done, and in the end had still had to prompt the doctor before my condition had been detected. Moreover, the doctor had not been able to tell me why I had this condition. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche understands medicine more than doctors, for he can do what no doctor can.

Reluctant to perform surgery, the doctor simply said that he could not give me further advice until after he had consulted with the other doctors. After we reported the examination results to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, he asked what we planned to do. I said that I did not plan to undergo medical treatment, and would completely follow Rinpoche’s advice. Because of my condition, I was unable to perform grand prostrations, so Rinpoche instructed me to chant the Great Six-Syllable Mantra ten thousand times a day and make a major offering. He immediately applied the entirety of my offering toward support of the Great Six-Syllable Mantra Puja to be held at Drikung Thil Monastery. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche is always giving his disciples opportunities to accumulate good fortune. While chanting mantras, I am often unable to stop shedding tears. I think of the suffering of sentient beings and of the various evil acts I have committed; and by contrast, Rinpoche cares for and guides his disciples so compassionately.

By then I was physically weakened, the vision in my right eye was worse than 20/100, my qi and blood levels were too low, and I was frequently on the brink of crisis. In the middle of the night one time, I even felt an obvious, rapid drop in my body temperature and blood pressure, putting me in quite a critical state. My husband telephoned to report this to the Dharma brother who was my team leader, and a few minutes later, we received a text message informing us that Rinpoche had said that I was overtired and should try to rest. Right at that same moment, I felt my temperature slowly begin to go back up, and that night I was finally able to sleep peacefully. After that, I was able to improve my health using precious Chinese herbs from the Chinese Medicine Clinic for my treatment. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche truly is a master of healing! Not only did he save my life, but he also thoroughly changed my behavior and emotional state. My vision has gradually improved! At its worst, it was less than 20/100, and now it has completely returned to a normal vision of 20/20 to 20/17. All of this is thanks to H.E. Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s compassionate help, which has enabled me to have time to focus on practicing Buddhism.

At the end of November in 2012, I was driving on the freeway when I lost control and went into a skid. In an instant I had lost control of the steering wheel, and fishtailed from the inside lane right into a taxi in the far outside lane, side-swiping it and forcing it out of its lane. When, by reflex, I pulled the steering wheel back around, a large truck slammed into my car from behind. In the span of these few short seconds, my mind went completely blank; all I could hear were the sounds of the vehicles crashing into each other one after another. After regaining my wits a few seconds later, I screamed, “Rinpoche, save me!” Miraculously, my car seemed to be under the control of someone other than myself, and it hit the slope of the hill off the inside lane and stopped. If this had happened a few tens of meters sooner, I could have had an accident inside the tunnel; a few tens of meters later, and I would have rammed into the guardrail: The hillslope only came up to the road in that exact section. In the instant that I crashed into it, my head seemed to have banged against the windshield and caused the glass to crack. Later, I was practically limp when some helpful people pulled me out of the car. By then I was shaking all over, and just kept voicing over and over, “Thank you, Rinpoche! Thank you, Rinpoche!” I knew that the guru had again saved my life right at a time of most imminent danger.

After twice escaping the jaws of death, once from illness and once from an accident, I know without a doubt that were it not for Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s salvation, I could long ago have ceased to exist. It was the guru who saved me and changed my life. While I was sick, I remained cautious and vigilant, wholeheartedly and resolutely following the guru. I also continued to repent, for my suffering had given me a deeper appreciation for the helplessness felt by victims of illness. Only through understanding that life is not easy did I learn how to better cherish the time I have to learn Buddhism from the guru. The day after my car accident, even though I was completely drained of strength, had a splitting headache, and could not open both eyes, I still did my utmost to perform grand prostrations. In that moment, I wept in repentance, because I knew how complacent I had been! While I was sick, I learned what it meant to suffer, and I completely followed Rinpoche’s teachings and amend my ways. However, once my suffering decreased, I forgot its bitter flavor, and returned to my easy and comfortable mode of living; I went back to my bustling pace of life.

I repent. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche has given me a new lease on life, granting me time in which to learn Buddhism, self-reflect, and change, yet I have not done a good job of looking after my mind. I also hope that after listening to my story, my Dharma brothers will feel even more gratitude toward Rinpoche and can also remind ourselves constantly that we must listen to Rinpoche’s teachings, and that we genuinely must change. Most importantly, we must not slack off.

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Finally, I pray that His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche would have good health, keep turning the Dharma wheel, and maintain an eternal presence in this world and that his Buddhist activities would thrive and attain perfection to shed light in the whole void, benefiting even more sentient beings.

Respectfully written by Disciple Jiang Zhixin, Group 8, on December 1, 2013
Updated on October, 25, 2017

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