147: Grateful to Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, the Buddhas, and the Bodhisattvas

Praise be unto His Eminence Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, the Buddhas, and Bodhisattvas. Greetings, honored believers and Dharma brothers!

Thanks to an introduction by Dharma Brother Huang, I came to the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Center in 2006 to implore Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for help. At the time I was nine weeks pregnant, and was suffering from bleeding and blood clots. My doctor was not very optimistic about my fetus’s chances. During my audience with Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, he simply told me to extend my hands. After feeling it for a while, the guru shook his head and said, “You will lose this child.” All I wanted was to keep my baby, so I implored Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for help. After blessing me, the guru pointed out that he did not know whether or not I would be able to keep it, but that I should go home, eat completely vegetarian for eight days straight, and not come back.

After I returned home, my bleeding stopped a bit, but continued to a lesser extend intermittently. My doctor had been making preparations for me to be admitted to the hospital to prevent premature delivery, but in my twenty-third week, I suddenly felt a pain in my abdomen. I hurried over to the hospital for an examination, and the doctor said my water had broken and that I might be going into premature labor. After two days in the hospital, the baby came out prematurely and was placed in the intensive care unit; forty-seven days later, she passed away. She looked like she was sleeping; her face was as tender and rosy as an apple. Three days later, before the cremation, I asked the funeral makeup artist to help my baby maintain her lovely skin tone. She told us that her skills were not needed, however, because all afternoon, ever since my baby’s body had been brought out from refrigerated storage, her appearance had not changed.

Premature babies tend to lack sufficient oxygen, so when they die, most of them turn black. In the intensive care unit, another mother told me that when her son died, his entire body had turned black; it had been horrible and heartbreaking to look at. After that, my husband and I went overseas. When we came back in July, a Dharma brother phoned to ask if I’d had my baby yet. After I told her what had happened, she asked whether or not I would like to participate in the Great Indiscriminate Amitabha Puja for Transferring Consciousness to be held on September 9th. At the time, all I could think about was what I could do for my baby, but I had no idea; I felt utterly powerless. I therefore persuaded my husband to attend the puja with me (because that same year, we had participated in a Dharma event for transferring consciousness held by Exoteric Buddhists). When the 9th of September came, it was my hope that my baby could go to the Pure Land, or that I would be given another opportunity to have her; for her to come back and be my baby again.

At the end of October, after asking about my baby’s situation, the Dharma brother told me that my baby had only had the good fortune to die so peacefully as a result of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s blessings. The Dharma brother advised me to go to the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Center and thank the guru. The day before I went, I discovered that I was pregnant, so I again implored Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche to help me keep this baby. The guru instructed me to keep participating in the pujas and eating vegetarian. This caused me to hesitate a bit, but Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche kindly bent down and reassured me very gently that many of his female disciples eat vegetarian while expecting and their babies all turn out quite healthy, so I did not need to worry. I thought to myself that I didn’t care if I had to eat vegetarian, as long as I could keep this baby.

After that, we participated whenever a puja was held, without once taking a break. Previously, as soon as I’d fallen pregnant, my bilirubin had gone up; multiple examinations later, my doctor had only been able to explain this using statistics or by saying that the reason was unknown. However, this had not been the answer I wanted. This time seemed the same as before; all of my prenatal examinations had been done, as of course had the amniocentesis. However, the report also informed us that we needed to return to the hospital the following Monday to discuss something with the doctor, and that put me in a terrible mood. During the puja that Sunday, the other Dharma brothers told me not to have an amniocentesis. I burst into tears and said I’d already had one, and that the test results had shown an abnormality. They told me not to worry, and then one of them said that when she was pregnant a test showed that her fetus had Down’s syndrome, but that her baby had been born perfectly healthy. I also heard a few others saying that they’d been predicted to be at risk of severe thalassemia, infertility, leukemia… (and I wondered how this could be, considering genetics and cells…). Upon hearing these stories, I suddenly woke up and wondered how I could be so lacking in faith. After the puja, I discussed with my husband the idea of going back to the hospital on Wednesday, but first asking for Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s advice on Tuesday. My husband was opposed; he said that the guru always uses his own good fortune to help sentient beings, and that we should not consume any of it for our own selfish ends. Even though our baby had defects, he thought we must accept them, because that was our karmic retribution; we had no choice but to bear it. This was indeed true; how could I have forgotten this, yet again? Later I told him that even if there ended up being nothing wrong with our baby, there was something wrong with me. Therefore, we went ahead and sought an audience with Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, during which the guru told us that we must not commit acts of killing and said that we should go home and recite the Sutra of Bodhisattva Ksitigarbha’s Fundamental Vows in dedication to sentient beings. A while later, my bilirubin rose again. I again sought Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s counsel, and the guru said that we should dedicate more recitations of the Great Six-Syllable Mantra to sentient beings. After that, my bilirubin stopped there, and did not go any higher. However, my doctor still used statistics to explain my current condition to me, and said at every prenatal examination that I should prepare to be admitted to prevent premature childbirth at my thirtieth week of pregnancy. This time, however, it was completely thanks to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s blessings that I was able to safely make it through this pregnancy.

Before I gave birth, my OB/GYN doctor suggested that I have a C-section (because I’d had one before, during induced labor, and the doctor feared that a natural childbirth might rupture my uterus, which would be very dangerous). My husband and I went to the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Center to ask Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s advice, and the guru told us to go ahead with the C-section, instructing us to come back to the Buddhist Center before the operation. When we returned two days before surgery, he gave me a nectar pill and told me to take it.

While I was giving birth, due to a miscalculation by the anesthetist, the second the OB/GYN doctor started cutting an incision, it hurt so bad that I cried out. The doctor wondered aloud, “How could this be?” I quickly visualized Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s Dharma photo, and then I fell completely unconscious as my face was covered with an anesthetic mask. I did not wake up until ten hours later (my husband told me that I’d slept for ten hours). As soon as I opened my eyes and saw my child, I wholeheartedly thanked the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas for having bestowed upon us such a healthy baby. Pediatric examination showed that my baby was completely normal.

When my child was born, she was extremely healthy.

Over the course of this pregnancy I gained a deep understanding of just how compassionately and equally H.E. Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche treats sentient beings. Any sentient being that can completely follow the guru’s instructions, act accordingly, thoroughly amend his or her ways, and constantly repent for all past wrongdoings can obtain help and have their wishes fulfilled by H.E. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, the Buddhas, and the Bodhisattvas. From this day forward, therefore, I am determined to practice diligently under Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s guidance in the hope that one day I can be reborn in the Pure Land, never to fall back into reincarnation again. I also hope that all sentient beings can similarly be freed from suffering and obtain happiness!

I thank H.E. Vajra Guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche!
I thank all the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas!

Respectfully written by Disciple Lao Yinming on December 18th, 2008

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