008: How Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche Helped My Father

On August 1st, 2008, my father was sent to the hospital emergency room because he was not feeling well. All the results of the examinations were normal. At that time my father was also suffering from a mild case of Alzheimer’s. At first, we were going to leave the hospital, but the doctor said he wanted to take a look at some X-Ray films. As a result he found a shade in his lung the size of a ten-dollar coin. Right away the doctor determined that it was cancer and requested that my father stay in hospital for more examinations. After spending one week in the hospital, my father was taken home by me for recovery. At that time, our Guru the His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche had just completed his long retreat and was about to return to Taiwan around August 8th. Because Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche has never stopped helping all beings by using up all his strength and energy, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche had almost lost his life during the retreat. I felt very sad when I heard this news and held myself responsible for I had not truly followed and practiced Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s teachings. And I had to rely on Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s help to resolve many of my problems. I thought that if one disciple can be such a big burden to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, then you can imagine the burden Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche carries for his more than 700 disciples. I thought to myself that I should take full responsibility for my father’s situation so Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche could worry less and be able to help those who really need it. Right now I should just believe Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche would have the best arrangement for my father and that there would be no need to worry. I also told myself that I should do as many full prostrations and practice the Mani Mantra as much as possible. In addition, I also thought that making offerings to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche was very important. Therefore, while my father was awake, I told him that I wanted to make an offering to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. My father agreed to make an offering with his own money. During the first puja Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche held after returning from Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s retreat, I made an offering on behalf of my father. It was because of this offering that my father was able to have cuases and conditions and accumulate virtues to meet Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche in person.

By the end of August of the same year my mother was sent to the Song-Shan Hospital for asthma. She was transferred to the intensive care room because her condition had worsened. At that time I was in great fear because of the fact that my father was suffering from lung cancer and my mother’s situation was critical. My situation was like a candle burning from both ends. I didn’t know what to do and decided to ask for Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s guidance and help. I nearly crashed to the floor when I kneeled before Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. First I begged for Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s advice about my mother’s condition. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche asked if my mother had recently eaten any crab? I recalled that my brother-in-law had brought a crab home and cooked it for my mother two weeks ago. So I answered: “Yes, my mother did eat crab.” Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche said: “This time your mother will not die. Is she a vegetarian now?” I replied: “No” Because of this Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche said he could not give me any nectar pills. (However because I had prostrated before Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s photo at the Glorious Jewel Jewelry Company the day before, my mother’s condition had actually improved). I continued and told Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche that my father was diagnosed with lung cancer. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche stared at me and said like a father: “Why didn’t you tell me until now? Haven’t you suffered enough?” Because Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche knew that I am the only child of my family and need to take care of them both, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche said: “Bring your father here to see me!” I happily answered: “Yes!”

I then took my father to the Glorious Jewel Jewelry Company to make an offering to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche also kindly gave my father his blessing and enlightened him the reason he got lung cancer. It was because he liked to go fishing when he was younger and now he has received the consequences of his negative karma. I besought Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche to conduct the practice of consciousness transference for my father after he dies. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche said: “I can promise you but it really depends on what you will do”. I was really overjoyed but at the same time worried since Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche wanted to see what I would do. I reminded myself that I should attend to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s enlightenment.

During the time my father was recovering at home, because he had received blessings from Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, he didn’t need to receive any medical treatment nor take any pain killers. He wasn’t even breathing heavily! All in all, it was very easy to take care of him. If it weren’t for the blessings of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, I believe my father would have been in great pain.

In November of 2007, though my father had lost weight day by day, his spirit and diet were fine. In December, his condition rapidly worsened; but he was neither in pain nor suffering from trouble breathing. He was able to lie down and sleep and suffered only just a loss of his appetite. I did not force him to eat. But very often I showed him the picture of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche and reminded him to follow Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche without fear no matter what. I do not know if my father saw the picture or heard what I said or not, He just always nodded and said yes to me. I also asked him very often if he felt sick or not. He always said he was not in pain. When asked if he wanted to go to the hospital, he said: “It is no use to see a doctor. This is what will happen to an elderly man. It’s alright.” Nowadays I recall what he said and can’t help but wonder: “If I were sick, would I let go everything like him?” I think what happened was because of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s blessings. So my father had experienced the slightest pain.

In the early morning of January 3rd, 2008, I went to see my father. He said: “I am going to die, I am going to die”. Quickly I took the picture of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche and showed it to him. I told my father: “Daddy, you must remember Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s face. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche will help you. Remember this, Okay?” My father nodded. Because my mother needed to refill her prescription in the hospital, I first rushed to the hospital for my mother’s medicine. Then I decided to finish some office work so that I could stay home with my father during the next few days. Yet around 11 AM I received a phone call from home saying that my father was dying. At that time I was about to reach home and when I got home, my father had just passed away. Immediately I put a nectar pill in his mouth and called the Glorious Jewel Jewelry Company to beseech Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche to conduct the practice for my father.

I contemplated on Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche beside my father and recited the Mani Mantra. Hours had passed and I still hadn’t received any calls from my Dharma brother. Though I was very anxious, I still firmly believed that Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche would fulfill his promise to help my father. My father’s appearance was peaceful, with his mouth lifting up as if he was smiling when he died. The skin on his face was smooth with a reddish color. I was actually very happy even though he was gone. After 8 hours of reciting the Mani Mantra, suddenly I remembered that I must touch the crown of my father’s head to see if it was warm. So I touched and felt the warmth. That really made me delighted! I then touched his forehead and it was cold. I touched again to reassure myself. I know so long as we have faith in Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, we can still receive blessings from Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche even though Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche does not conduct the practice in person.

After the remains had been placed inside the icebox, my aunt and uncle wished to have a last look at my father. We retrieved his remains and saw his appearance was still the same. My aunt kept saying: “Your father looks really peaceful”. Even when the forensic officer came to my home to examine the body, he also asked “was he really a lung-cancer patient?”. He inquired all signs of a terminal-stage lung cancer patient but my father did not have any one of them. The forensic officer could not believe that my father had lung cancer. All this was the result of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s blessings.

Before my father had passed away, I wondered if I should make another offering to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche or wait till after my father passed away. While I was still undecided, my father died. Because my hert was not right, I did not help accumulate more virtues for my father. Consequently, immediately after my father’s death, I could not reach Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche to conduct the practice to transfer my father’s consciousness. However Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche had fulfilled his promise to me and helped my father go to the Pure Land of Western Paradise.

I am truly grateful to my two fathers: One is the father who gave me life and raised me. I will always be thankful that I could be with him and show him my filial obedience during that last stage of his life.

The other father I am really grateful to is the His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche who teaches me the Buddhist Dharma so I can repay my father for raising me.

Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche often enlightens us with the truth that “The Buddha Dharma is difficult to hear and a great guru is difficult to meet”. How lucky we are that we can meet Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche who has realized enlightenment through true practice and teaches us the true Buddhist Dharma. The best offering to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche is that we not only closely follow Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s steps but also follow Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s teachings to practice. In that way, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche can worry less about us and benefit even more people who need help. These are what we disciples should do.

I am grateful to the guru, the His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche.

The sixth group Yu-Xuan Xu

Updated on February 7, 2009