032: The Impermanence of Life

During the afternoon of May 23, 2008, I came to know that my mother had caught a cold and needed to stay in the hospital. My sister comforted me saying that I did not need to take any days off to see my mother because it was not a very serious thing. But I felt that I needed to go home because I was going to leave Taiwan on May 27 and participate in the inauguration of new Glorious Jewel Buddhist Center in Kyoto, Japan on May 29. The afternoon of May 24, I hurried to the hospital after reverently seeing His Holiness the 37th Kyabgon Drikungpa Chetsang Rinpoche and my guru the His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche off to Japan.

While waiting for the bus, my sister phoned me, saying that mom’s cold had become serious and the hospital had issued critical situation notification. The doctor wanted my family to transfer her to another hospital with an intensive care unit. Standing outside of the airport, I was stunned and did not know how to deal with it. Suddenly, there was only one thought in my mind, only my guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche could help my mom. I hastened to the hospital and saw my mom with filled with fear and helplessness for the first time in my life. My mind was entangled up. Fortunately, with blessing of my guru and the Buddhas as well as Bodhisattvas, I calmed down and put a nectar pill which I carry all the time, into my mom’s mouth and implored guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche to give my mom his blessing. I told my mom not to be afraid and that she would be fine because of my guru. Holding my hand, my mom nodded and said that she also implored Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche to save her.

My sister was standing beside me and told me that our mom’s blood pressure had risen to 200 and her heart rate had felled down to a very serious level just a few minutes ago. I raised my head to look at the measurement instrument and everything seemed to be in an acceptable condition. My mom was recovering gradually. I knew this miracle did not occur for no reason, surely it was guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s compassionate blessing. Her followed stable condition also prevented her from the tracheostomy operation for medicine injection. At the reminder of the Dharma Brothers, I also gave up the thought of shortening my Japan trip. How could I forget to attend this puja on behalf of all sentient beings?

Back at home I felt very peaceful, as if I knew my mom was going to survive. While I carried out my practices as usual for that day, I made a promise that I would represent my mom to make an offering, so as to gather lots of merits and lower her pain, thus doing what a good daughter should do. It was not until that time that I firmly realized guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s words “Life is impermanent” and “To be a truly good son or good daughter is to be a Buddhist”. At that moment, I realized there is nothing more important than learning and cultivating the Buddha’s teachings! Because my parents were very old and living in the countryside, it is hard for them to come to the pujas to learn the Buddha’s teachings; therefore I should take the responsibility to represent them in doing it. I reverently give my appreciation to guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche takes care of every disciple every minute of the day, doing Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s best to bless us in our endeavors. I reverently implore the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas to bless guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche to be healthy, and have a well dharma body as well as prefect completion of dharma activities.

My mom is now eighty-five years old and taking good care of not only herself, but my dad for every meal. This all can be contributed to guru Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s blessing. I have no way to pay back such immense favor; the only thing I can do is to learn Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s teachings and work hard to correct my behavior and become a true Buddhist.

Disciple of the Glorious Jewel Buddhist Center: Zhang Rui-Zhen 97.12.12

Updated on February 19, 2009