012: A Heart of Gratitude

I am deeply grateful to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche who used the Buddha’s teachings to not only fulfill our wish, but also guide us to deeply experience the law of cause and effect and learn Buddhism.

It’s been many years since we met with Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche for the first time (at the end of September, 1998). My wife and I had then been married for 6 years, during which she had miscarried her first and second pregnancies. We were deeply baffled and wondered why to give birth to a child was the thing that could not be controlled in this life. Even though she received the herbal regulation from Doctor Liu for a long time from early 1998 to September of the same year, my wife still could not conceive. Yet perhaps the causes and conditions were finally met: The doctor suggested we go see a great practitioner of Esoteric Buddhism, the His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. Without any hesitation, we paid our visit to the Glorious Jewel Jewellery Company on Xinsheng South Road.

Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche gracefully appeared holding a string of rosary beads in his hand and Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s bearing was kind with dignity. We explained why we had come and Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche sensed us with Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s palm over ours cross the air. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche then said, “ The reason you cannot have a child in this life is not an individual problem, but a problem of you two who did not sow the conditions in previous lives.” Hearing his honest and outspoken words, we were shocked and suddenly realized why neither fetuses had lived: No beings were willing to sow the conditions with us! Subsequently, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche also told us why it had been difficult for us to conceive from a medical point of view. What Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche described was exactly what we had gone through, and was even clearer than those we had received from those doctors trained in western medicine! We were struck with amazement. Afterwards, when we asked if there was any solution to the problem, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche merely said, “You can try to learn Buddhism.” Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche then went on to tell us the importance of charity; however, being the fool I am, I blurted out, “But we have been doing charity!” Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s benevolent face turned solemn, and told us that how much to be given to charity, as stated in the Sutra, is 1/4 of one’s income. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche then asked, “Have you given that much?” We were left speechless and felt immense remorse for our rudeness and pride. Thus our first meeting came to an abrupt end. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche refused our offerings and we left in dejection. Nonetheless, with the ardent help and arrangement of our Doctor Liu, we were able to attend the Chod puja and regular teaching puja held later that week. At the end of our first puja, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, once again smiling kindly, bestowed his blessings upon our heads. Our hearts were greatly touched by that moment. Thereafter, having thought it over and discussed it between us, we both agreed that we would walk the Buddhist path starting from that day. Even though we were unable to have children in this life, we decided we must solve the conditions that we had sowed in our past; otherwise, we would most likely have the same karma in our future lives. Two weeks after our first meeting with Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, we paid another special visit to express our determination to learn and study Buddhism and also pray for his guidance. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche was delightedly and briefly enlightened us again about the importance of learning Buddhism, and told us that attending the pujas will help cleanse our obscured original nature. We presented an offering and this time Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche accepted it. Leaving, we were filled with relief and joy, and thus our learning of Buddhism officially began.

During this period of time, we attended pujas as unceasingly as possible to listen to Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s Buddhist teachings of charity, repentance, mercy and compassion. In addition, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche at our appeal conducted the practice of Dharma for us and even visited our home to conduct a cleansing ceremony. It was eight months after we had started to learn Buddhism that we had our 3rd pregnancy and the fetus showed signs of life. This was truly the great compassion of Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche—using the merit accumulated from his practice of Buddhism—has fulfilled our wish for children so that we could understand the greatness of Buddhist teachings and learn Buddhism calmly. During the pregnancy, Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche often bestowed his blessings upon us and instructed us how to take care of the mother’s and baby’s health. My first daughter, now age 2, is named Xiangyun, a name bestowed by Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. My second child, a boy, is already three months old. This is exactly proved that Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, by using Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s accomplishment accumulated from his Buddhist practice, has helped us change our karma.

Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s kindness to our family is so immense. Yet using Buddhist teaching to fulfill our wish is only one facet of his kindness. The most important thing is Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche has guided us in understanding the principles of the Buddha’s teachings. The fulfilling of our wish was merely a casue for us to start learning Buddhism. Now, in order to produce a virtuous effect, all we have to do is reverently follow Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche’s teachings and practice Buddhism wholeheartedly, so as to show our true heart of gratitude and unrivaled faith in our Guru.

By Cao Shuzhong, a disciple

Updated on February 7, 2009