237: Faith Counts

The 15-year-old girl Yixuan had a rare illness of Rhabdomyosarcoma, a type of cancer. In spite of a series of chemical treatments, it later spread and developed into end-stage Mesothelioma. It was at that time when she met the His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche.

Yixuan passed away on May 31 and was granted the extraordinary “Phowa” from the His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche. Ever since she met Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche and received his teachings and blessings, Yixuan had stopped taking all chemical treatments and painkillers. How could a 15-year-old girl bear such pain! The amazed doctors and nurses called it a miracle.

Indeed, Yixuan didn’t feel any pain at all. At the moment she met Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, she had made up her mind to seek refuge under him and accept the Buddhist doctrine. She firmly believed in the compassion and mercy of Rinpoche, Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, and trusted that they would have her best interests.

Innocent 15-year-old revealed her gratitude and firm faith in her lama Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche, Buddhas, and Bodhisattvas through a journal kept in her personal blog.

The following two passages are cited from Yixuan’s blog:

FEBRUARY 2, 2008

These few days.

A month has just gone past, so fast.
I returned to the hospital for check-up.
Having done the X-ray, and all seemed normal.
The result of blood test was an OK, great!
To me, the winter break did not really start until today.
There are about only 7 days left before the school begins.
It’s not enough at all…
I’d love to go out and have fun,
Even a walk will do.

I took some time to visit a friend.
She was finally permitted to leave that horrible place,
and could return home to celebrate the Chinese New Year.
How wonderful!
I felt happy for her.

One year ago,
I just went through an operation, getting in and out of ICU.
I kept urging the doctors to let me go home for the red envelopes.
I remembered going back home a few days before the Chinese New Year.
However, I had to return to the hospital on the third day of the new Chinese year
for a 5-day therapy.

I have made it through,
and I believe that every one of you will do, too.
In the beginning,
The doctors of Chang Gung and Mackay Hospital all told my Mom that my pathological conditions were critical.
But I have tried my best.
You’ve all seen what I’ve accomplished.

Thank Buddhas and Bodhisattvas.
Thank Doctors and the nurses.
Thank you all very much.

My greatest appreciation is for my most respected Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche.

I’m very grateful.

And I’ll keep on fighting.

I shall get the full grades from the doctors.

I trust I’ll be granted more time and chance.

I will also strive to get them.

Got to finish my assignments for the winter vacation
A large pile of them!
Who can help me out!

Dashing to the assignments…

FEBRUARY 23, 2008

I will be strong.

I hate the weather today.
I hate the Taipei city today.
I hate… I hate…

I’ll be hospitalized next week
And do the biopsy.
I’ll have to take the thorough check-up all over again.
In the head and the bones.
I don’t want to have it.
I truly don’t want to.
Truly not.
Who said that Saying it for three times would make come true
Everything will be OK, OK, OK…

Buddhas and Bodhisattvas,
I trust myself to you,
And I believe that you have my best interest..

The His Eminence Rinchen Dorjee Rinpoche,
Your own disciple has faith in you, with all her heart.

After we came out of the hospital,
Mom and I were in the car…
I hate it!
What did I buy facial tissues this morning for?
I was going to use them for cleaning my hands.
I don’t know why.
Rain drops were falling outside the window, and my eyes watered as well.

I just saw the long passage that Irene sent me.
Oh, how dare you do that?
You know very well that I am not that strong.

To be honest, I was deeply moved.
I’m glad to have met you.
Sorry to bring you worries.

In addition, this is for my homeroom teacher.
I felt sorry to call you during the holiday for my scheduled absence next week.
I’ve brought you worries, too.

Dear all,
Relax. I will go through all this safe and sound.
Do not worry.

I’m a greedy person, and a shameless one.
All I want is the best wishes from you.
I know that you guys have been most generous to me.

And now,
My mind is restless.

Hey, Good Health.
I’d like to make you a good friend of mine.
We are kindred spirits, aren’t we?

Updated on June 12, 2008